HARLEEN

“This can be long but please bear with me, it's a journey. When I was 13, I got into this huge fight with my mom over absolutely nothing. It seems like nothing now but back then every little thing was a hundred times magnified. Internally, I was in chaos, had no idea what had caused this, maybe it wasn't one thing, maybe there were several. And it was not like I wasn't talking about it, I was, but only to one person who eventually got bored of my sob stories. I didn't know what I was going through, I was always extremely sad, extremely ignorant, totally cut off from the world around me and I never even wondered why no one was realizing this, it made sense but then it didn't. So I get how the butterfly effect works, don't think I, of all people wouldn't know, because I've experienced it firsthand. But that night when I lost all my cool, I managed to cry even when I wasn't alone, but I was so disturbed, the butterfly had flapped its wings a long time ago but the hurricane was upon me now. I didn't choose to run away from pain, I chose to survive. And now that I look back at it, I only feel proud. I've accomplished something which wouldn't matter otherwise. I chose to survive, of course there's always a choice but I want you to know that giving up is not worth it, life is. So please talk about it, tell me how you feel. I'm always here.”